FEAR

Hello darkness, my old friend (hello) Knocking at my door again Begging me to come outside Let you back into my life Now, usually I'd be strong enough To lock the doors and keep 'em shut But not today, I'm desperate (desperate) So go ahead and come on in So go ahead and come on in So go ahead and come on in OCD is worse than ever, hands are bleeding Maybe I should take the pills, don't (whoa) Know what's going on with me Some days I actually think I might be schizo- (whoa) Phrenic, prolly not, but even writing this Is making me begin to spiral, oh, God (oh, oh, oh) Made a promise, told myself I wouldn't let the fear back in But then I did, though (whoa) Told the world that I was sick of running Then went back to running, what a joke (whoa) Disappointed, yeah, me too I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (oh, oh, oh) It's the same song and dance, you've all seen it before Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor Every decision made isn't mine anymore Like a puppet with strings, I just don't have a choice What's the truth? What's a lie? Help me, God, help me, Lord Face your fears, dry your eyes Grandma died, what's the point? Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice Standing back, watching my mansion burn to ash while I Hold the gas can, asking God if He started this fire Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted? Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted? Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is Is this what You wanted? On the verge, on the edge (Is this what You wanted?) Petrified, scared to death (Is this what You wanted?) Praying to God, desperate (Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?) (Is this what You wanted?) Hanging on by a thread (Is this what You wanted?) Empty heart, nothing left (Is this what You wanted?) Breaking down, spiraling (Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?) (Is this what You wanted?) Standing back (is this what You wanted?) Watching my mansion (is this what You wanted?) Burn to ash (is this what You wanted?) While I (oh, oh, oh) (What You wanted, is this what You wanted?) Hold the gas (is this what You wanted?) Can Asking God if (is this what You wanted?) He started this fire (is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)